Re: widows thread

snappyfrappy · ‎03-10-2010

Bobbisue, hope you see the post from MamaS, WOW, I'm so relieved to hear from her. Sorry you are dizzy and sick to the tummy. Will pray you feel better soon.

snappy

snappyfrappy · ‎03-10-2010

HiLo, you are so kind, and have such helpful things to share. How terrible it must have been to be left so young with 3 kids. We know the Lord took care of you, and that you learned so much about Him through all those years. Am so sorry for Silkeej, but grateful she found her way here. Also thrilled to hear from MamaS.

snappy

snappyfrappy · ‎03-10-2010

Hi possummink, love the picture of all the beautiful birds taking a bath or getting a drink. Thank you for your lovely post to our Silkeej. My heart goes out to her. Take car of yourself.

snappy

Mamaschatz · ‎03-13-2010

Silkeey, my friend. I am sitting here crying. Reading your post brought back so many memories for me.

My husband died in October 2011. He was diagnosed in July with lung cancer and three months later he was gone. He served 30 years in the military, did three tours in Vietnam and worked 16 years for the Law Enforcement. Agent Orange got him. Like you I also burried him in his Army uniform with all the awards he got. I had to wait 3 months for his funeral in Arlington because I wanted him to be burried with Full Military Honors. He was a soldier through and through. In all honesty I had to attend 2 funerals for him. One here in my town which was conducted by Law Enforcement and then the one in Arlington. After he died I took his wedding band and I put my wedding band in his pocket the last time I saw him. We exchanged rings one more time. I wear his ring all the time and it comforts me. The first 2 years after he died I couldn't stop crying, I still cry, tried to kill myself. I felt lost, angry and couldn't eat at all. I lost 33 pounds. My husband, my best friend, my rock was gone and I didn't know what to do with myself. I was lost and didn't know right from left. Couldn't remember anything and at times thought I was loosing my mind. You see I am from Germany and I live here all by myself, no friends and family, and to make matters worse my brother in Germany died 7 months after my huband. I wasn't mentally and physically able to fly over there.

It will get better. You might not believe it now. The Ladies on this board helped me so much. We all understand.Be kind to yourself and do whatever makes you feel good even if others don't agree. I went ahead and got my husbands portrait tattooed on the inside of my lower left arm. He is with me all the time. Come here when you feel the need to talk. We all understand and nobody will judge you. Cry whenever and whereever you feel like crying. Tears are healing and release the stress. Please, don't hold it in. Talk to your husband. He will listen. The pain never goes away. We just learn to live with it. I am sending you a big cyber hug and will say a special prayer for you. Take care my friend.