@sarahpanda I am so sorry for the loss of your dear husband. There are many of us on the board that have been married for 40 to 50 years and know that this could be us.
I have no answer, but just take it a day at a time, thank goodness that is all you have to do.
I pray that you have family and friends close by that can hold you up with love. If you are so inclined, lay this burden at the feet of our good Lord and lean on him in the days ahead.
Take care~
Fear not Brothers and Sisters! I have read THE BOOK..........we win!!!