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[momtochloe]

Oh @ChiliPepper I just love that NordicWare piece your picked up at Marshall's!

[mustang66lady]

Hello Kitchenettes,

So today was my 60th birthday.  I have been so sad this past week and spent most of today in tears.  I miss my Mom more than I ever thought i could.  I thought of her all today as well as the majority of the week.  Dh and our kids did what they could and I tried to keep a happy face but all noticed times that I just couldn't hold it in.  Don't know what more to say as I know most all of you no longer have your Mother's around either.  Do you all feel a particular loss at a certain time of the year?   I don't know why I did today, I just did.  Have never had it hit me like this.  In fact, I thought it never would because I do feel like I "lost" her a couple of years before she died, when she could no longer recognize several people, would see people who weren't there, or ask me how her DM and DF were.  They passed when I was quite young.  Then she got where she couldn't speak at all but you could read a lot of what she thought thru her eyes.  I felt then that I lost her, piece by piece but the sadness I feel now is just, different.  Thank you for your prayers and concern.  I don't want anything in particular except to just put this out there.  I know that most, if not all of you will understand.  That helps more than you know.    Oh, I posted this in red, her favorite color. 

[VaBelle35]

@mustang66lady  Happy Birthday.  I hear you.  I think grief comes and goes and never really totally leaves you.  I lost my father a few years ago and while we were not close at all, I do have days when I think of him more than others.

I think I mentioned before that my next door neighbor lost her father around Halloween.  She will lock herself in her house tonight with the lights out and hide from the world.  This is how she deals with this day.  I try to keep as many people from knocking on her door as I can and hope the night passes quickly for her.

[momtochloe]

Good morning Kitchenettes, happy Monday . . .

[ChiliPepper]

(((((mustang)))))

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[momtochloe]

Oh @mustang66lady your post just broke my heart . . . I wish I could drive down and give you a huge hug right now my friend . . . 

My mom and I had a complicated relationship.  It was great while my dad was alive but it went off the rails after we lost him and wasn't helped with my siblings input.  We ended up in a good place when she passed thank goodness.  I more had the reaction you are having now after she passed but it was about my dad as I didn't really get a chance to grieve when he passed.  I had several dark days and yes unfortunately they always hit hardest around the holidays or his or my birthday.  It's not unusual to feel this way Mustang so please don't be hard on yourself.  One thing I took away from some hospice material I read while my dad was in care is that yes one day you will feel normal again but it will be a different version of normal and that has stayed with me all these years.

I wish you peace my friend and a happy, belated birthday . . . (((mustang)))

[momtochloe]