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[corita]

I have always loved this saying and remind myself of this thought everyday....

       Life is not about how fast you run, or how high  

       you climb, but how well you bounce.
                                                                - Unknown..

[Justice4all]

@chickenbutt

I've always taken you for granted as a rock, someone I could count on to deliver something wise and worth reading. I am glad that you're here and value highly your contributions, and of course, you.

[Sawn]

@chickenbutt: I have enjoyed your nic, personality, and posts for many years. You are loved and valued here. I am just severly disappointed that your avatar doesn't match your nic, lol! @Lilactree, hckynutjohn and several more: you all are a gift to all of us. But back to the original question. I try, no matter what I am facing,  to remember that life on this earth has a beginning and end. I live one day at a time and rejoice in the simplest of pleasures: a fresh snowfall, a hot cup of coffee, knowing that I have a roof over my head, etc. 

[momtochloe]

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@chickenbutt wrote:

Staying positive is a constant struggle for me.  If somethig is bad, it's bad.  I can't put a wig on it and call it ok.

I have a daily struggle to survive, to be perfectly honest.  I really don't have any worth anymore.  I don't contribute to the world in any meaningful way because I just don't have the tools or the will anymore.

I have been a survivor since I was a little kid who had very bad things happening to her.  Honestly, one of the ways I survived the most was just to be numb.  Feeling nothing is better than feeling bad.

I go through my days, each no different than the last, and try to find  bits of joy in little things that make me smile.  I try to keep my mind occupied with things that stimulate it.   I don't have a lot of will left, beyond that.

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Oh goodness my friend @chickenbutt it makes me more than sad that you say you have no worth and do not contribute to the world anymore as you have always been one of my most favorite posters on these boards as your posts are always helpful and real.

My heart breaks for you my friend regarding your childhood but you have built a good life for yourself, your family and your furbabies . . . please know there are more than a few posters that look forward to hearing from you every day especially me . . . 

[hckynut]

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@Desert Lily wrote:

I want to do more than survive, but there are times in my life when I just tread water. This has been one of the hardest years in my life, having lost my mother this summer and my ex with whom I reconciled with these last couple years and planned to spend my "golden years" with at retirement passing days after

Thanksgiving. My chld is on the east coast working on a Ph. D. in frankly "rocket science" and has been compelled in that journey for years now, which brings me great joy along with some isolation. I'm sorry to sound down, but I'm sad, alone, and grieving during this holiday season.

How do I survive? I write lousy books and upload them onto a popular electronic book site. I have 5 so far, and my goal is to write 20 more. My characters live in different times and places and experience different things, and if I have a point to make it's intertwined in there.

They don't sell well and sometimes they pay utility bills, but I write them for personal survival; they're under my late dog's name without even family or friends being able to read them. I was able to find other independent writers' works that I enjoy reading on that website. I often think of my grandmother at 60 and of what she did in her life.

I wish I had her knitting, sewing, and creative skills because they helped her survive.  I have a secret goal of knitting the same beautiful hats, scarves, gloves and mittens someday when I retire. How else do I survive? By reading and hopefully learning from wise, compassionate posters.

[itiswhatitis]

Acceptance looks like a passive state, but in reality it brings something entirely new into this world. That peace, a subtle energy vibration, is consciousness.

Eckhart Tolle