I'm In A Funk - Page 6

gidgetgh · ‎03-09-2010

@geezerette wrote:
@gidgetgh wrote:
@Jordan2 - I just read your post and all the responses. Many posters have given you great responses.

I'm coming up on the one year anniversary of my husband's death. It has been a brutal year for me, in many areas, and I have not fared well which makes me even more sad than I already was.

I think it is especially hard when you were also the caregiver as you and I both were. Not only did we lose someone who was precious to us. You and I and tons of others also lost our "jobs". I think that finding purpose in the new life is one of the hardest things. I struggle with that.

And holidays and birthdays just stink. They just do. You can "powder and paint them and make them what they ain't" , but they're hard. And each holiday seems to last forever.

Anyway, I just wanted to tell you that I read your thread and am thinking about you and pulling for you to be well and at peace.

When people (the ones who bother to ask me at all) ask me how I'm doing I tell them I'm just trying "right the ship". That's how I feel.

Take care.
@gidgetgh

For myself, I add weekends to those.

Good luck "righting your ship". I think mine will "list" from now on.

@geezerette - how could I have forgotten to mention weekends? I post here all the time that I don't care for weekends.

Why is it, when I have a 50/50 guess at something, I'm always 100% wrong?

chickenbutt · ‎03-09-2010

You know, I read your post, Jordan, and had to walk away and cry for a while. I cry for you, I cry for me, and I cry for anybody who is living a life that just doesn't seem to matter.

I wish I knew the answer to make you feel better. If I did, I'd make myself feel better too. My spirit, over the last several years, has been broken six ways to Sunday and, TBH, there's pretty much nothing left.

If I can make somebody smile, or even laugh, or being around non-human animals, I can still feel some joy. Outside of that, it's just one day after the next of feeling like what's the point.

Before any of the negative Nellies show up to say - hey, why don't you get off your arse and go volunteer. Just shut up. If I could, I probably would but for some of us that's not a choice and please just keep the negativity to yourself. Trust me, negativity does not help. I'm living with that in spades and each day is worse than the last.

I hope you can find the way to feel better, Jordan. I really do!

Thanks for listening (or not - that's ok too). It just breaks my heart to know that there are others out there who struggle because it feels like no way out sometimes. We each have to find our own way - if there is one.

geezerette · ‎03-16-2010

@chickenbutt wrote:
You know, I read your post, Jordan, and had to walk away and cry for a while. I cry for you, I cry for me, and I cry for anybody who is living a life that just doesn't seem to matter.

I wish I knew the answer to make you feel better. If I did, I'd make myself feel better too. My spirit, over the last several years, has been broken six ways to Sunday and, TBH, there's pretty much nothing left.

If I can make somebody smile, or even laugh, or being around non-human animals, I can still feel some joy. Outside of that, it's just one day after the next of feeling like what's the point.

Before any of the negative Nellies show up to say - hey, why don't you get off your arse and go volunteer. Just shut up. If I could, I probably would but for some of us that's not a choice and please just keep the negativity to yourself. Trust me, negativity does not help. I'm living with that in spades and each day is worse than the last.

I hope you can find the way to feel better, Jordan. I really do!

Thanks for listening (or not - that's ok too). It just breaks my heart to know that there are others out there who struggle because it feels like no way out sometimes. We each have to find our own way - if there is one.

@chickenbutt

I hear ya. And I feel ya.

I hope you can find the way to feel better too, @chickenbutt. Whatever that way is for you.❤️

chickenbutt · ‎03-09-2010

@geezerette wrote:
@chickenbutt

I hear ya. And I feel ya.

I hope you can find the way to feel better too, @chickenbutt. Whatever that way is for you.❤️

Thank You so much. That is very kind. I wish the best for you too, my dear!

I don't want anything to be about me but I just hope that somebody else who is struggling can know, if nothing else, that they are not alone.

Katcat1 · ‎07-21-2011

@Jordan2 Do you feel comfortable talking to your PCP for an anti-depressant? Right now it sounds like you are not living and you should be enjoying life. Think about it and take good care of yourself.

kindness is strength

suzyQ3 · ‎03-09-2010

@chickenbutt wrote:
You know, I read your post, Jordan, and had to walk away and cry for a while. I cry for you, I cry for me, and I cry for anybody who is living a life that just doesn't seem to matter.

I wish I knew the answer to make you feel better. If I did, I'd make myself feel better too. My spirit, over the last several years, has been broken six ways to Sunday and, TBH, there's pretty much nothing left.

If I can make somebody smile, or even laugh, or being around non-human animals, I can still feel some joy. Outside of that, it's just one day after the next of feeling like what's the point.

Before any of the negative Nellies show up to say - hey, why don't you get off your arse and go volunteer. Just shut up. If I could, I probably would but for some of us that's not a choice and please just keep the negativity to yourself. Trust me, negativity does not help. I'm living with that in spades and each day is worse than the last.

I hope you can find the way to feel better, Jordan. I really do!

Thanks for listening (or not - that's ok too). It just breaks my heart to know that there are others out there who struggle because it feels like no way out sometimes. We each have to find our own way - if there is one.

Fixed it for ya, chicky, a.k.a. @chickenbutt. Best comment ever!!!

~Who in the world am I? Ah, that's the great puzzle~ Lewis Carroll, Alice in Wonderland

LyndaGee · ‎03-11-2010

I'm sorry you are having a rough time, Jordan. Hope things improve soon. You are definitely due for some good luck.

chickenbutt · ‎03-09-2010

@suzyQ3 wrote:
@chickenbutt wrote:
You know, I read your post, Jordan, and had to walk away and cry for a while. I cry for you, I cry for me, and I cry for anybody who is living a life that just doesn't seem to matter.

I wish I knew the answer to make you feel better. If I did, I'd make myself feel better too. My spirit, over the last several years, has been broken six ways to Sunday and, TBH, there's pretty much nothing left.

If I can make somebody smile, or even laugh, or being around non-human animals, I can still feel some joy. Outside of that, it's just one day after the next of feeling like what's the point.

Before any of the negative Nellies show up to say - hey, why don't you get off your arse and go volunteer. Just shut up. If I could, I probably would but for some of us that's not a choice and please just keep the negativity to yourself. Trust me, negativity does not help. I'm living with that in spades and each day is worse than the last.

I hope you can find the way to feel better, Jordan. I really do!

Thanks for listening (or not - that's ok too). It just breaks my heart to know that there are others out there who struggle because it feels like no way out sometimes. We each have to find our own way - if there is one.
Fixed it for ya, chicky, a.k.a. @chickenbutt. Best comment ever!!!

You know I adore you!

Also, thanks for the chuckle. Laughter always helps.

Lucky Charm · ‎03-09-2010

Believe me there are people within yelling distance that feel the same way you do and are in a funk, I'm almost positive. You're not alone in that.

And I bet there are some really nice people in that same shouting range, too. Except you don't know them and they don't know you. That's the kicker.

I feel badly that you had to listen to the MIL that was *sharing* her festivities. She probably knows you won't have that and it would've been nice for her to invite you and share the day. Some people are like that and, well, ....there's that.....

I've always wondered what those Grief Share meetings are like. Because if I ever lost my husband, I'm sorry, I don't think anyone I know could make me feel any better. Not my children or siblings or friends. (I get nauseous thinking about it.)

But it seems that sitting in a room of people, talking it out, crying it out, yelling it out, just letting go--- and being able to--- and being understood (validated!) that there's a pain and a loneliness that only those in the room would share---to the point of meeting again and again. I don't know if they meet like that weekly, but I would hope so.

So maybe if you tried one of those meetings, you probably don't have to speak, but listen to what others are saying. And if you realize how hard it is for them share, but they are, maybe you could open up to.

Just a suggestion.

It hurts to know someone is hurting, it really does. And I'm not a know- it- all in any way, but I've always wondered about those meetings, compared to going to a therapist, where you know you have to talk and most likely they aren't suffering any kind of loss at all.

Jordan2 · ‎03-16-2010

@chickenbutt I'm sorry I made you cry, you must be a very kind person and take to heart other people's feelings. Reading the responses from everyone has made me teary eyed, people I don't really know offering advice, comfort, and good wishes, I wish people in my life would offer me the same. Take care and know I'm grateful to everyone here.