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@Wheatchick1,

Take support where you can get it, and know that many of your friends here are supportive and do understand, having experienced the same loss.

(((((((((Wheatchick)))))))))

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[Fiero Woman]

My heart is with you.  I lost my precious one of 45 years 5 years ago.  I also have the same symptoms as you do, even ending my life.  I decided I had to do something that makes me content, at least a little.  I volunteer at a wildlife hospital.  I care for some of the babies in my home after hours and boy does it keep me busy. I still am at the hospital.   My insominia has been overcome with 4-hour feedings of babies.  And such satisfaction as they are released and healthy is overwhelming.  It is not a cure by any means  but it keeps my mind busy.  Not for everyone but for me it works.  I still miss my husband awfully but I have a purpose that keeps me busy, something to look forward to, a responsibility.  .

[viva923]

Wheat, you are suffering from a loss that took a part of your life. Grieving can take years to work thru. You are not on a time clock punching it every day.  

You have to figure out what is working for you. Talking about in this post may have helped with the anger you feel. 

When you have a rough day talk with a friend, therapist, who ever you see, write a letter each rough day to let your anger show on the paper how much you feel betrayed by this loss. Not sure if this will help, but at least try it once or twice and so on see if it works.

Each day get up, put your foot pointing forward, keep each day with baby steps, count each day as a win when you take 1 step forward.

I do hope as you keep moving on that you will heal.