@gulf coast girl I’m so sorry for your loss. Over 9 years ago my best friend died suddenly too.We had just spoken on the phone.An hour later she had a massive heart attack!!
We were like sisters for over 40 years. I still mourn her loss.She never got to see her children marry or the birth of her beautiful grandchildren. I miss her beyond measure.
Give yourself all the time you need.Cry as much as you have to.Come talk to us your forum friends. We understand.