Wellness

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I have had chronic panic and low constant depression for 50years. For the past 12 yrs. I've been on many meds. theapy etc. I left my job of 24 yrs. and have been home w/husb. and 90 yr. mother who lives in our basement apt. My husb and I don't get along since we both quit work, I wonder if we ever did. I see my mom aging and I can't change it or make it better, even tho she is doing excellent.I often think of what it would be like to be alone,but I know I would be devastated and then I have the guilt which does not help.I do every thing I can to help, yoga,exersise, volunteer,but I get so overwhelmed. There is nothing I can do to change anything.Any ideas?