On 11/22/2014 CelticAngel said: On 11/22/2014 Lannie said: On 11/22/2014 CelticAngel said: Hi everyone, as my surgery date draws closer I am getting more and more nervous. Found out that my onco (doing the surgery) will be going out of town the day after surgery. Im not happy abt this at all. We dont know if it will be lapro or open at this point. Maybe I should postpone until he returns?
You are having the pre surgery jitters - it's common as the day draws nearer! There will be someone on call for him the next day and for as long as he is gone - these things are planned out well in advance on their schedules so that if there are any issues a dr will be there for his patients, so don't worry.
It will be just fine and no, don't postpone it - then you will have an even longer period to worry! You will be so glad when it is over, they will take very good care of you. Wishing you the best,
Lannie
Thanks so much, Lannie. And also for your earlier post where you took great care in directing me to ask myself questions about how I would feel from the surgery. I very much appreciated it and you were right on that the emotional side of this was much more impt than I suspected. I am one who operates on logic in my job (research scientist) and in my life in general. Having emotions control me is very much out of the ordinary and my comfort zone. Turns out that while I'm not happy at all about doing this (still think someone will have to hit me over the head w/a hammer to get me into that operating room) I really don't have a choice unless I want to jeapordize my health in the long term w/much worse surgeries on the horizon.
Celtic - OK, now I understand some things better. On the surface, it's not logical to give yourself over to someone who is going to put you under and take some of your body parts out. You just don't normally put your "life" in someone else's hands like that. But what you said in your last sentence - that is what makes sense or makes it very logical, about this whole thing. It's the best conclusion/decision to make, all things considered and I really hope you are at peace with that. It is a very good decision you made for yourself.
Now you have to make it happen and then it will be all over and you can concentrate on recovering from the surgery. Logical, but I well know how you are feeling. We do what we need to, for the best of reasons, but it certainly takes some of our control away. The best we can do is chose our health care providers and facility carefully and make sure someone is with us at all times, before and after.
Which it appears you have done by having these specialists, and expressing your concerns so they are aware of it. They do these types of surgery all the time and know exactly what to look for and what to do if an issue comes up.
I'm glad you have caught this early, whatever it turns out to be. I remember thinking how powerless I was over chemo and what it did to my body. It was bigger than I was, but it also was bigger than the cancer and helped me win over it, so I dealt with it. And you will deal with this too, it's NOT bigger than you are - you will conquer!
I'll put my Lioness suit on and give a couple "Roars" for you! (long story), so be at peace, it will actually help you get through this.
Lannie
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