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Hi Everyone, It has been a difficult past week or so. I decided to go w/a full hysterectomy. My surgery will be on November 25. The surgeon thinks it is 80% likely he will be able to do surgery laproscopically, which is great news as it means a shorter hospital stay and recuperation time.

The waiting has been tough. I have been trying to hold it together during the day, but I have not been sleeping and then when I get to sleep waking up hysterical. Between still being in shock over this whole ordeal, feeling like the cancer is spreading for every day I wait and my panic over the surgery I have been a very unhappy camper. Last Friday I had an emergency appt with the psychiatrist I see for my panic disorder. He prescribed a much higher dose of xanax and suggested I not explore anything further about surgery or my condition online as it is only making me very stressed.

My family was in town last week but that only made me feel more like a zombie than I did before. It is hard to go about acting normal. It's like my whole life has changed but everything else has stayed the same.

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On 11/10/2014 F1wild said:

All clear. No cancer. Nodules are gone. Oncologist says perfect results and if I make it to 2 years the stats say I'll be good for 10.

Thank you all for your support!!!!

Oh girlfriend, FANTASTIC news!! I've been thinking of you all day and begged St. Francis to please make those nodules be gone!! I seriously feel like I've held my breath all day waiting to hear how it went. I am SO incredibly happy for you and I raise my glass (of coconut water, lol) high to your continued good health!!

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Celtic we were all where you are now. I was angry. Really angry. I said I worked like a dog all of my life and now this?? My Dr wanted to pospone the lumpectomy for another 2 weeks.Her office called.I got her on the horn and said no bloody way. I want this out of me yesterday. I'll never forget she said is Friday too soon. This was Monday. I said I'll be there with bells on. I walked into the OR and said lets rock and roll. The rest is history.

Stay off of the web. He doesn't even know what he's dealing with yet. It may turn out to better than you think. Then your going to kick yourself for all of the turmoil you put yourself through. Driving yourself nuts is not going to change a thing except make you sick. Whatever it is you will get through it. We can all testify to that.

HappyDaze, I prayed to Padre Pio.

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Thank you all, especially Cocoablue, CelticAngel, HappyDaze, Jackie, wagirl, Lannie, Kindlereader, from the bottom of my heart for the birthday wishes and cheers for my great news!!! {#emotions_dlg.thumbup}

Celtic, you'll get through this surgery just fine. The only tiny downside was the morning after my surgery and being drenched with perspiration. It was right before my big estrogen shot. Then I was fine. You are a trooper and making your decision keeps you in charge. Think of yourself as the F1 driver, racing towards your Grand Prix of Monaco victory. The doctors and nurses are your pit crew, but you call the shots. Once this is over you'll have time to get yourself together without the anxiety. Life may not be full-on Rosie, but much more like it than now.

Goldie, you're in my thoughts every day. My hope is for a much healthier you!!

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On 11/10/2014 F1wild said:

All clear. No cancer. Nodules are gone. Oncologist says perfect results and if I make it to 2 years the stats say I'll be good for 10.

Thank you all for your support!!!!

This is the best news I've heard all day!! I'm so happy for you F1!! What a great gift you received on your birthday. Celtic I'm so sorry you're facing surgery soon. I had a laparoscopic hysterectomy (took everything but my cervix) last June on an out patient basis. I was rolled into the OR around 8:15 am & I was home resting on the couch by 11:30 that same morning. Aside from being a little groggy from the anesthesia & running to the bathroom every 1/2 hr from the catheter I had no pain. By the next day I felt perfectly fine but I knew I had some restrictions like not lifting anything & no driving for about a week. Jackie is right, stay off the Internet or you'll make yourself even crazier. I did that when I was dx w/breast cancer in January 2013 & my mind would just race. Anyway, we are all here for you in whatever way you need. I want to say hello to my friends here, it's been a while since I've posted on the board but I always think of everyone: Lannie, wagirl, useahawk, Goldie, Jackie. Hugs to all of you, kindle
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F1 congrats on your good news we LOVE good news on this board!!!! Lannie thanks for the good wishes, I'm doing much better. All this lung business came out of left field. But it takes more than a dangerously low oxygen saturation to kill me!!! Lol Celtic my dear, please take your drs advice and don't read about OC online. The stats are awful and it's depressing as heck. And we are all individuals and each have a different experience. If they are going to try to do your surgery laparoscopically is FANTASTIC news!!!! I don't think you realize. It means they are expecting to encounter a small amt of bad stuff. You have to try and control your emotions, you already know all this , but just a gentle reminder that youcan get through this and you WILL! You have two weeks toget ready for your surgery. I suggest you go shopping get some new comfy pjs or lounging outfits. Maybe some new bed dec pills. Surround yourself with comfort. Get your "nest" as cozy as you want. Think of happy things and take your medicine! No shame in needing meds to calm yourself . I take them. I believe Jackie calls them happy pills lol . If you have any questions I'll try to answer them, if I can. Hang in there . We are all here for you! Goldie
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CelticAngel, I know you are scared and anxious but I really think it is a good idea NOT to research everything online. Ask you doctors all the questions you have instead of googling. They have the most accurate, up-to-date information so they are your best resource right now. When they found a large tumor (12cm) in my uterus I was scared and wanted to go online to see what that all means but I didn't and I am glad I didn't because I know it would have freaked me out more. Anyway, I will be praying for you. I know you will get through the surgery with flying colors. Take care.

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F1---holy cow--is it MY birthday?????? Your news makes me feel like I just got the BEST present!!!!! You got A+ on your report card!!!! So happy for you!!

Celtic--glad to hear that things are on the books so you can get on with what you have to do. Stay away form the web----except for us, of course{#emotions_dlg.biggrin}But doesn't knowing a little more make it easier on you? It did for me altho I thought the same things you did about surgery and if the cancer zombies would spread while I was waiting for surgery. They didn't of course. We will be here to cheer you on so please keep us in the loop---we'll talk you down from the edge!!! The family thing is always weird----no one knows what to say and you really don't have much to tell them yet. I hope they will come thru for you and help out. And please ask for help if you need it. I think talking to your head dr is wonderful--hope you can see him a few times before the surgery---be good mental floss{#emotions_dlg.rolleyes}

Jackie--how is GF #2 doing with her cancer zombie adventure? Geez--what is up with all of this---I truly believe cancer is an epidemic.

Goldie---so glad to hear from you too.Been thinking about you alot. Glad you can throw some things out there for celtic---thats what I love about this board---lots of info. I hope you are on the mend.

Kindle--long time no hear from! How are you doing? Hope all is well!!

cocoa----how are you doing? I think about you every day. You know you can come here and rant and rave anytime!!!

Lannie--you ok?

UK---how about you?

Today is frosty and cold and brilliantly sunny. Wa state is getting "touched" by the polar cold but no snow or the nastiness you folks are getting or have. I bought that windshield cover from the Q that was a TSV a week ago and that sucker is great---used it last night and no scrapping the windshield this a.m. Don't buy much anymore but that one is a keeper.

OK---the laundry zombies{#emotions_dlg.devil2} are beeping at me to come play so I guess I need to go. I love good news!!!!! Thanks girls!!! May the force be with us{#emotions_dlg.w00t}

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Hi Pam! ((((((Waving)))))) from Oklahoma ! Goldie
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Hi, Pam, F1's news really perked us all up.

My girlfirend is doing really well. She saw the surgeon yesterday and was told it is very small. She'll know more when she gets in there. She said it was a riot. She brought her daughter to be her second set of ears and her daughter was so upset she didn't grasp anything.

Cocoa, and Celtic, how are you both doing??

Off to help husband put together the bookcase from Ikea.

Jxx