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[chickenbutt]

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Noel7 wrote:

@chickenbutt

You are worthwhile.

You are a good friend to me and so many others here.  You are intelligent and kind and you give good advice to people who need a little help along the way.

You are funny, I like to kid around with you.

You are a valuable person.

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Thanks, Noel.   We've known each other for quite a while, eh?    Whenever I think of this board, in a positive way, I think of you.  I remember when you were SFNoel (is that right?) - anyway, it always rminded me of a city I have always loved and then there was you - always a voice of reason, cheerful and helpful, a truth-seeker, and a genuinely kind person.  

[chickenbutt]

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LilacTree wrote:

I have to say that at one month from 79 and therefore one year from 80, I still don't know what the hell is going on.

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In my mind, you have such a young heart.   Being a bit younger (62), I always picture you as as young as me in days and younger than me at heart.

[Moonchilde]

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@pitdakota wrote:

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@chickenbutt wrote:

Staying positive is a constant struggle for me.  If somethig is bad, it's bad.  I can't put a wig on it and call it ok.

I have a daily struggle to survive, to be perfectly honest.  I really don't have any worth anymore.  I don't contribute to the world in any meaningful way because I just don't have the tools or the will anymore.

I have been a survivor since I was a little kid who had very bad things happening to her.  Honestly, one of the ways I survived the most was just to be numb.  Feeling nothing is better than feeling bad.

I go through my days, each no different than the last, and try to find  bits of joy in little things that make me smile.  I try to keep my mind occupied with things that stimulate it.   I don't have a lot of will left, beyond that.

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Well hold on there just a minute, @chickenbutt!  What do you mean you have no worth??!!  I, for one, would not know what to do if I didn't see your posts and your contributions here on this board anymore!!  You have helped many out here and many of us love reading your posts.  Not to mention, we look your nic!

I suspect you have far more worth and value than you realize.

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ITA.  @chickenbutt you're a vital, warm and giving member of this community at large and in your wisdom and fellowship you contribute much. 

Now (time and situation-wise) is when I thought I could "give back" to society by volunteering, but I have been smacked with issues which mean standing, walking and being out and about energetically and cheerfully just isn't going to happen much on a daily basis, rendering me homebound more than I'd anticipated. Also going through painful dental issues and will be in pain through the holidays. It's really difficult to feel happy and have a cheerful spirit even if I WANT to, which of course I badly do.

CHRONIC issues, even small ones, affect how we are able to live our lives and affect our outlook whether we want them to or not, no matter how hard we fight them.

I "get it", CB. Hang in there - we wubs ya!

[chickenbutt]

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pitdakota wrote:

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chickenbutt wrote:

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pitdakota wrote:

Well hold on there just a minute, @chickenbutt!  What do you mean you have no worth??!!  I, for one, would not know what to do if I didn't see your posts and your contributions here on this board anymore!!  You have helped many out here and many of us love reading your posts.  Not to mention, we look your nic!

I suspect you have far more worth and value than you realize.

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That is very kind.  Thank You!  One thing that makes me happy about my name here is that it makes people smile.   I do love to make people smile!

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And you do @chickenbutt.  And just think about what an inspiration you are to others that might have a similar background to yours.  You are an inspiration to me and I have not ever experienced anything as you have. I am in awe of how not only how you have survived, but your outlook on life and your humor.  You go girl!!  And I am NOT just saying that. 

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You ladies are making me cry - but in a good way.  I have to say that, although I don't ever think of this sort of thing in regard to myself, to inspire even one other person is meaningful beyond imagination.  

I tend to have a greater ability to love animals than what I have for humans, in general, because animals are so pure.   They just make my heart burst with joy.  So, I spend time with my house dog and bird, and the little birdies outside that I keep in water and food.  They are so sweet and I wish I could keep them safe forever with my love.

I've been here for a long time (I believe about 12-13 years), but not as long as some, and made some wonderful friends.  For that I am grateful beyond words.

[chickenbutt]

Moonchilde - You have always been a dear to me, whether we agree on a subject or not.  You are smart, fun, and wise.   You don't seem to let the perils of life get to you, at least on the surface.  

BTW, I didn't mean to make any of this all about me.  I'm kind of embarrassed about that but I also felt it important to respond to those who addressed me.

Anyway, we've had some rough times and we're still here so I guess that does matter.   One thing that has helped me has been the many tools I received from a most wonderful psychologist.  She specialized in PTSD and of course depression.   I once told her 'it's not easy being me'.  She just shook her head gently and said 'I know, I know'.    She was awesome.  I still have a card she gave me with some things to ask myself when I started to go off the edge.   I keep that in my wallet and look at it periodically.  It's in her writing and I also love that.

I always look forward to what you have to say and that has a lot of value, to me anyway.   I know how you feel about wanting to do more for others but having health challenges that got in the way of that.

sorry so long.  I don't know why I'm so verbose today.

[qualitygal]

@goldensrbest & @chickenbutt oh my gosh I wish you knew how much you mean to so many here. Both of you ladies are wonderful and I look forward to seeing what you're doing and how you feel about things. So please, consider this hugs and kisses to both. I appreciate you more than you may realize. I doubt I'm the only one who admires both of you ladies!!! Merry Christmas to you both if I don't get to wish this for you again before the 25th. Peace and love coming your way.

[cherry]

Chickenbutt and Goldens we are all here for you ,and for Lilac Tree ,as well

[LilacTree]

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@chickenbutt wrote:

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@LilacTree wrote:

I have to say that at one month from 79 and therefore one year from 80, I still don't know what the hell is going on.

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In my mind, you have such a young heart.   Being a bit younger (62), I always picture you as as young as me in days and younger than me at heart.

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@chickenbutt

Wow, thanks CB!!  Did I ever tell you that "CB" was my office nickname for 24 years?  I will admit I have a very young mind and keep up with things.  Too bad I don't have the physicality though.  I know you understand that very well!

[dex]

@chickenbutt@I am surprised to read that you feel life is a struggle.I read your posts often and always enjoy them but I never realized that you were struggling.In my mind I pictured you as a happy character with a great sense of humor...just by the name you chose alone.I always get a giggle when I see it and then I read your posts.I am your friend even though we haven't met and I care about you.

[LilacTree]

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@cherry wrote:

Chickenbutt and Goldens we are all here for you ,and for Lilac Tree ,as well

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@cherry

You're such a sweetheart, cherry.