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[MalteseMomma]

Pat,Thank you so very,very much for the special card and special words you said. I love the picture on the front of it .The poem is so beautiful,I could hardly read it out loud I was crying so hard.I will treasure it along with the rest of MrB's things in my memory box.

If let myself think about him gone, I want to die.I cannot bear to think of life without him.Barkley WAS my life.My whole reason to live and that is the truth.I took care of myself because I had to take care of him.Who else would,everyone has such busy lives,no time for another dog.

Even though I do have a large close family,that I love,he was still the love of my life.

When I think about that day,and how sweet, softly and smoothly it all went,I think maybe some might think didn't care that much.He never knew what was happening.He contentedly slept through the whole thing.Like he had been doing throughout this whole year. It was over so fast and easy,that sometimes I think I made a huge mistake.I know I didn't,but my heartaches unbearably.Maybe a few more weeks.. months.............but his sweet face always told me he was so very,very, tired.

I have had to learn to hold in pain all my life and not cry.I do it well.Noone ever knows when I'm sad or sick or hurting.I don't tell anyone my feelings.If I let go and think he is really gone now,I think that I'll never stop crying ...........

Thanks friend ,for caring enough to take the time to send this special card