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[Ro340]

Hi ladies. I read the boards all the time but rarely post. But now I find that I need your words of wisdom. I have two children, a daughter age 38 and a son 37. I am divorced from their father and am happily remarried for the 25 years. I got pregnant with my daughter while having an affair and I am positive that her father is not my ex. Her life has been difficult. She has many health problems. She is married and has a beautiful 4 year old adopted son and I adore him. My son is handsome and healthy and I must admit that I identify more with him. My daughter and I are very close but we definitely clash personality wise. My daughter and son are not close and have not spoken to each other in a few years. They both say that they just have nothing in common with each other. We all live in different cities. I know this sounds terrible, but my daughter is not is good looking as her brother and they really do not resemble each other. I have tried to locate the man I think is her father to no avail. I have such guilt feelings regarding all this. I feel that her life is so much harder because of me. I feel there is no way I could tell her all this without causing her more anguish than she already has. It is very hard to live with this secret. I love her with all my heart and soul and wish I could take her pain away. I feel that she suffers both physically and mentally because of me. And I don't know how to make peace with what I have done. Any advice or kind words would be greatly appreciated. Thank you all.