Community Chat

[Pixie Jo]

Am I jealous? Yes. Do I like feeling like this? No.

I have relatives that are very successful and wealthy. While I love them very much, it is sometimes very difficult to hear about their latest promotion, bonus, vacation, summer home, car, etc., while I struggle to pay my gas bills, borrow for a roof, car, or whatever. I don't necessarily want the things that they have, but financially I struggle so much more. The more they get, the worse I feel about myself. I can't escape the talk since they are close relatives. They don't brag; they just tell me what's going on in their lives.

There are few offers to help or even lend when I have been in bad situations; that's the hardest to accept. I know I shouldn't compare, but I can't help it. I have a lot to be thankful for and know God will take care of me, but sometimes I feel so disheartened. I think I need some good counseling so this feeling doesn't stop me in my tracks or ruin some very close relationships.