Community Chat

[forrestwolf]

I have tears in my eyes as I type this.........My Savannah left me almost 2 years ago, 2 years ago in January........ I came here and found such support and help to get thru this trying time of tears and constant hurt.........and I thank all that helped me and supported me.....I had just lost my mom as well, and I felt so all alone in the world until I came here, and you all were such a comfort and help to me......So many suggested to go and rescue another as I had done for my little Savannah, but I have yet to find that strength to go forward, as I will not let my housekeeper erase the spot that she always left on the wall where she came in from her doggie door to come in to me......I never want that door frame cleaned........She still lives there for me........It took me over a year to get her off my bed, where she once slept as a pup........She now sits on a heart Longerburger basket, and I still tell her every morning when I cut off the light to go to work, that mommy loves you, but I have to go to work, and I will see you when I get home....Yes, many think I have a mental problem.....She did not die and go away, she went to a happy place to waite for me........She is with my mom and her Cocker Spaniel........She is helping me care for my beloved wolves as best that I can, so that they may never leave this earth........

My dad, who can never tell me he loves me, and says he loves no one, came over on Thanksgiving, and was standing with me in the kitchen, and stated he just kept waiting on her to bust thru the doggie door........He may never tell me he loves me.......fine.........but I know he loved my little Savannah........as he always called her Ms Chatham county, as Savannah, Ga is in Chatham county......I am going thru so much right now, both physically, and emotionally, and I am facing a great challange in my life, and I need her so much to lick my tears, and look at me with her eyes, and make me understand that her being here is what makes it worth all.......

My boss yells at me that I need a dog, and she is just going to bring a dog to my house and drop it off.........Would I take care of it.......yes.........but am I emotionally ready to have another in my home, to offer love and protection..........No, I am not........I do not understand.......I work so hard for animals in so many ways, and work on petitions, and have worked to shut down a gas chamber that is in my county illegally, and I feed the foxes on a hunting preserve I do not agree with next to my house, but I can not resign myself to bring another fur baby into my home........I have so much hurt every day, and I truly think I am afraid to have another hurt and love in my life............I will stop now........BUT.......I want to thank you all that were here for me back then, and I hope that all of you with fur babies understand what it truly is to have such unconditional love in your heart and in your life........I am still hurting and longing to have that love in my life again, but I am just not ready.......BUT I am waiting to have that feeling again to help a poor helpless puppy back in my life to make my life complete.......

I hope you never take for granted the love and loyal and unconditional love that your furbaby gives you.........Remember your role and what you can do to make your baby sit up there on a pedestal during this holiday season, and thank you all for standing by me in my time of need......... Please have that word sent up above, to help me be able to once again rescue another furbaby to love and confort in my home..........