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[forrestwolf]

Well, I had to go out today for the 1st time since I lost Savannah on January 18th. I guess that is not true, the 1st time I went out is the day I went and picked up her ashes. I had to go to the doctor today, myself, and I have to go many miles away, as I live in a small town with not even a stop light. I have been exposed to a lot of chemicals in my prison, and our air is out to boot, so I can not talk or breathe too well. Hopefully, my doc has me on the right road today.

My problem, is that, I went out to eat at Applebee's while I was in town, and this was the 1st time in 14.5 years that I did not bring out a doggie box with Savannah's name on it. I always wrote her name on every box, and she always looked for a box when I came home and had not left in a uniform. My uniform always meant mommy was going to work. I started crying in the restaurant, and my waitress asked if I was OK, and I told her what I was feeling, and she started crying and said she had just recently lost her fur baby and knew just how I felt. I just miss her so much, and never dreamed that something so trivial would set off in a field of emotions, and to compound the problem, her vets office is less than a mile from where I was at. I just wanted to stop in and pick her up and pay her bill and take her home, but I know that this can not happen any more. The one thing that I do not need to do is cry right now with my sinus issues, but I just can not stop. She always made me feel so much better when I felt so bad. I am not looking for a response, I just wanted to speak my feelings and emotions right now, and since I can not talk, and do not have anyone to talk to, I just jotted them down to you all here.

Thanks for taking the time to read this,

The lone Forrest Wolf