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[Munchkincat]

There have been so many furbabies that have crossed the bridge in the last few weeks and I've been heartbroken to read about each and every one that's had to make the tough decision to help their babies cross. Unfortunately I think it's my turn here shortly. Brandi is my 17 year old chihuahua. I've had her since she was 3 months old. Her birthday was 2/7 and I didn't think she'd make that but she did. Now she's on Lasix for her heart. She's supposed to take 1/2 pill twice a day but that's getting harder and harder to do since she's just about stopped eating anything. I'm thrilled when she eats a couple of bites of something but that is few and far between. Her medicine makes her drink a lot of water and she's retaining fluids which make it hard for her to breathe. When she does get comfortable and goes to sleep that is pretty much all she does. Over the weekend she had trouble with her back legs (walking & standing) so my hubby & I carried her outside and back inside. Yesterday the weather was beautiful here so we carried Brandi outside and put her on her blanket so she could sun - she loves that and we took some pictures of her. I took a moment to look around and realized in those few moments that everything was perfect. Sadly I realize that these will probably be the last pictures we'll have of her.

I don't want to be selfish (which I know I'm being) but I'm having trouble just getting up enough courage to call the vet and schedule the appt. My hubby sympathizes with me but I have a tendency to become VERY emotional when I have to make this final decision. I've done it before for many of my other furbabies and it's never easy but this will be especially hard since I've had Brandi for so long. I find myself hoping when I get to the vet she might tell me that it's not time yet but I don't think that's going to happen. I've always heard that you'll know when it's time, that your furbaby will tell you and I know that Brandi is looking at me and she looks so sad and maybe that's what she's telling me but I don't want to acknowledge it.