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On 2/22/2014 mistriTsquirrel said:
On 2/22/2014 tiamaria said:

OP....I just stumbled across this thread. I want you to know that through this thread, through all the hundreds of posters posting and their wise advice, people have been enlightened, helped, or just comforted in a some sort of way. Whether it is realizing they are not alone, realizing they are not suffering alone, reading a post that gives them that moment where they realize something about about themselves, or just finding comfort in all the advice. This has without a doubt helped someone. Thank you. Smile

Thanks, tiamaria.

When I started this thread, I didn't know what a turn my life would take just months after the thread began. I was looking for practical ways of dealing with my depression, which have--of course--been very helpful. But something else happened that I hadn't predicted; I met some very kind people along the way...what they taught me helped me resolve a few conflicts I had in my life that were keeping me ambivalent about what I wanted to do. When I learned of my father's illness, I was thrown into a state of grief the likes of which I have never felt. I have to credit people on this board for helping me get through the initial stages of grief, while my family was still in denial. Now that I am past the initial shock, I am better able to help my loved ones.

In the end, I learned that the people you meet and what you learn from them are priceless...and feeling that there is some sort of purpose in life is a big part of feeling that your life is worth living.

My hope is that others who are struggling with depression will reach out, learn from the people they meet (and the things that happen in their lives), and find purpose in living.

--mistriTsquirrel

I could not agree with you more. Sense of purpose is everything. Sometimes it is not just the people that you meet that help that switch turn on, but it is circumstances and situations as well. I myself feel a lot like you were feeling, and circumstances just as simple as stumbling upon this thread can help to open the eyes just a little bit to help reaffirm that the purpose is not too far away. Thank you again. I wanted you to know that you more thank likely helped more people than you probably knew with this thread.

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On 2/23/2014 TRUE said:
On 2/22/2014 mistriTsquirrel said:
On 2/22/2014 TRUE said:

Please know you're not alone. I too go through this. I'm on an antidepressant but I don't think its helping at all and have tried them all... Just knowing you're not alone helps people just don't admit things like this. I try to be happy but some days its such a struggle. My life didn't turn out the way I thought it would and I feel very sad about that. So I do my best to get through every day some how. Some days are better than others. When I get into my comfy pretty bed at night is when I feel comforted because I know everyone else is in bed too and not having fun like during the day = see the depression? I love to watch tv in my bed then morning comes and I sleep late to take the day away.....once I get up I feel a bit better. I miss seeing my kids and g'kids more than I do and one lives a block away but there are problems there I see him but not his wife I see my g'baby when I see my son.

So know we ALL have things we wish were different some to more of a severe degree than others but - if you think you need hospitalization than get yourself there or have someone take you. I'll admit I've thought of the alternative and I know I'd mess that up too somehow then what? If you have a sense of humor you will get through this.....try to find things that make you laugh. Write your feelings and burn them but again YOU ARE NOT ALONE.......I feel very alone too so big hugs to you and know we all care not just in words..... on Piers Morgan his show was on Loneliness the other night so its epidemic....know we care and I'm glad you posted this as others have come out too so GROUP HUG TO ALL OF US AS NONE OF US HAS NOT SUFFERED.....

I just noticed when you first posted this.....

It's okay, TRUE. Kiss

It's not like I'm not depressed anymore...I still have the same depression and loneliness that I had before, and there are others who do too. I feel a little different about it now, because I feel needed by my family (most of the time)...so I have a purpose now...but I still have the symptoms of depression. I still feel like running away sometimes, or have fleeting thoughts of ending my life. I don't think I will ever be able to escape depression...I'll just have to manage it.

I hope you are able to manage yours too, and feel a sense of purpose that gives you greater strength during the worst times.

I know what you mean about bed. I have a bed I call my "cloud bed." It is sort of my sanctuary, and I have to be careful not to spend too much time there.

Thank you sounds like we are very similar......almost exact... I try to stay in the moment I also practice Buddhism which isn't a religion to me but how to be happy....its hard work at times because I'm stirring up all the , wish i could say it here but s * * t......so its one day at a time.....glad you are better. Its the same with my "family" sometimes good sometimes bad but I've found we again....are not alone in this.

I have a lot of respect for Buddhism. I don't consider myself a Buddhist though...I'm too ornery.

If you haven't read through the thread, you may want to do so. There are some good tips, and people have shared their experiences with depression as well.

Keep on keeping on, TRUE!!!

Love,

mistri



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On 2/23/2014 tiamaria said:
On 2/22/2014 mistriTsquirrel said:
On 2/22/2014 tiamaria said:

OP....I just stumbled across this thread. I want you to know that through this thread, through all the hundreds of posters posting and their wise advice, people have been enlightened, helped, or just comforted in a some sort of way. Whether it is realizing they are not alone, realizing they are not suffering alone, reading a post that gives them that moment where they realize something about about themselves, or just finding comfort in all the advice. This has without a doubt helped someone. Thank you. Smile

Thanks, tiamaria.

When I started this thread, I didn't know what a turn my life would take just months after the thread began. I was looking for practical ways of dealing with my depression, which have--of course--been very helpful. But something else happened that I hadn't predicted; I met some very kind people along the way...what they taught me helped me resolve a few conflicts I had in my life that were keeping me ambivalent about what I wanted to do. When I learned of my father's illness, I was thrown into a state of grief the likes of which I have never felt. I have to credit people on this board for helping me get through the initial stages of grief, while my family was still in denial. Now that I am past the initial shock, I am better able to help my loved ones.

In the end, I learned that the people you meet and what you learn from them are priceless...and feeling that there is some sort of purpose in life is a big part of feeling that your life is worth living.

My hope is that others who are struggling with depression will reach out, learn from the people they meet (and the things that happen in their lives), and find purpose in living.

--mistriTsquirrel

I could not agree with you more. Sense of purpose is everything. Sometimes it is not just the people that you meet that help that switch turn on, but it is circumstances and situations as well. I myself feel a lot like you were feeling, and circumstances just as simple as stumbling upon this thread can help to open the eyes just a little bit to help reaffirm that the purpose is not too far away. Thank you again. I wanted you to know that you more thank likely helped more people than you probably knew with this thread.

{#emotions_dlg.blush} Thank you, tiamaria.

It has helped me a lot too. Even though there isn't as much activity here as there was before, I'm glad this thread still stands; I like to go back and read some of the posts over again. It's been a journey...in May this thread will have been up for a full year. It's hard to believe. And how much things have changed!! (But they also remain the same in some ways.)

I hope people can look at this thread and know that, even if your depression is a lifelong struggle, it can be managed...and there are ways of finding some sort of calm, even in the middle of a storm.



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mistri, I haven't been feeling well, just reading and posting a little here and there and need to catch up. But I wanted to share this.

You might have already seen this video but I saw it tonight for the first time. It’s important to remember that no matter how big and powerful the adversary might appear, how sharp and deadly the talons, how overwhelming the challenge, you might feel “little” but you’ll be a winner. I know it in my heart.

{#emotions_dlg.wub}

(images by National Geographic)

"I'm Little... But I'm a Great Winner"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XBEyCr5AoIs&feature=youtu.be

(edited spelling)

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Thank you, dooBdoo!!

I hadn't seen the video...it kind of made me tear up a bit.

I hope you are feeling better soon!!! Do you have flu...or are you just feeling down...?

Love,

mistri



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On 3/5/2014 mistriTsquirrel said:

Thank you, dooBdoo!!

I hadn't seen the video...it kind of made me tear up a bit.

I hope you are feeling better soon!!! Do you have flu...or are you just feeling down...?

Love,

mistri

You're welcome, mistri! I've watched the video several times. Incredible photography, I like the message, and it made me tear up a bit, too.

Migraines and depression have set in with more power, again. I know it will get better. I just feel I'm revisiting a dark cloud, slogging through quicksand. I need to take some time and re-read this wonderful thread, with all the wisdom, advice and humor it offers us all. Love you too, sweetie. Thanks for the good wishes. I send them right back atcha!

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On 3/6/2014 dooBdoo said:
On 3/5/2014 mistriTsquirrel said:

Thank you, dooBdoo!!

I hadn't seen the video...it kind of made me tear up a bit.

I hope you are feeling better soon!!! Do you have flu...or are you just feeling down...?

Love,

mistri

You're welcome, mistri! I've watched the video several times. Incredible photography, I like the message, and it made me tear up a bit, too.

Migraines and depression have set in with more power, again. I know it will get better. I just feel I'm revisiting a dark cloud, slogging through quicksand. I need to take some time and re-read this wonderful thread, with all the wisdom, advice and humor it offers us all. Love you too, sweetie. Thanks for the good wishes. I send them right back atcha!

Thanks, dooBdoo!!

I hope you figure out what, in particular, is causing those migraines (if you haven't already), and that you are able to exorcise the migraine demons, so to speak.

Do you ever put an ice pack on the back of your neck? I do that with a migraine...I sometimes put one on my forehead as well.

I hear that acupuncture or chiropractic visits can help, though I haven't had the money to try those things myself.

I hope you will try the ice packs and some essential oils. I have a Mygra Stick Roll-On that has essential oils, and it does help me when I have a migraine. I apply it to my temples. It's got a pretty strong smell to it, so you can roll it onto your temples, or--if you prefer--you can apply some to a paper towel and inhale it as often as you want.

As far as the depression...I hope you find what is right for you at this stage of your journey...perhaps somewhere on this thread. It never hurts to read what is helping others, right?

This board has been a huge help to me. Even the things I haven't tried yet on this thread are still valuable, because the ideas are still here and may help me down the road.

I'm thinking of you, dooBdoo, and sending love your way.



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Oh, how sweet, mistri!{#emotions_dlg.wub}

I've been investigating these migraines for years with specialists around the country. One of my doctors was Joel Saper at the Michigan Head Pain and Neurological Institute in Ann Arbor. I went there for a workup and consults and then his team worked with my local neurologist. I've identified some of my triggers, but not all of them.

Tried all sorts of preventative meds and pain meds, acupuncture, IV steroids (and other nasty meds), physical therapy, radiofrequency ablation of nerves, inpatient and outpatient procedures, and more -- too much to list in full. Some of the treatments damaged my eyesight. I have a traction device and a TENS unit to use at home. Though it's not the norm, heat works better than cold for my pain in most cases. Unfortunately, they call mine intractable and atypical migraine disease, and my doctors have compared some of the episodes to cluster headaches. It's really confusing and frustrating. Even so, there are always new things to try, and I watch for any and all ideas.

I usually don't run on and on about the details, and that was probably more than you wanted to know!{#emotions_dlg.laugh}{#emotions_dlg.blushing}

As with depression, what didn't work in the past might work now. So I keep reading, listening, learning. We have a wonderful, supportive group of posters here. And you are one of them, for certain.Smile

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On 3/7/2014 dooBdoo said:

Oh, how sweet, mistri!{#emotions_dlg.wub}

I've been investigating these migraines for years with specialists around the country. One of my doctors was Joel Saper at the Michigan Head Pain and Neurological Institute in Ann Arbor. I went there for a workup and consults and then his team worked with my local neurologist. I've identified some of my triggers, but not all of them.

Tried all sorts of preventative meds and pain meds, acupuncture, IV steroids (and other nasty meds), physical therapy, radiofrequency ablation of nerves, inpatient and outpatient procedures, and more -- too much to list in full. Some of the treatments damaged my eyesight. I have a traction device and a TENS unit to use at home. Though it's not the norm, heat works better than cold for my pain in most cases. Unfortunately, they call mine intractable and atypical migraine disease, and my doctors have compared some of the episodes to cluster headaches. It's really confusing and frustrating. Even so, there are always new things to try, and I watch for any and all ideas.

I usually don't run on and on about the details, and that was probably more than you wanted to know!{#emotions_dlg.laugh}{#emotions_dlg.blushing}

As with depression, what didn't work in the past might work now. So I keep reading, listening, learning. We have a wonderful, supportive group of posters here. And you are one of them, for certain.Smile

Thanks, dooBdoo.

I hope you'll be able to find some answers. Migraines are awful...and depression isn't much better.

Hugs to you, my friend. {#emotions_dlg.wub}

--mistri



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To Mistri and all the other ladies who have posted.

I am so thankful to you Mistri for starting this thread, it will not only help you, but lots of others in the same or similar situation.

I have suffered from severe depression for probably most of my life ..... I'm 65. I describe it as living in an eternal black hole.

I am unable to write more at this time, but I will definitely be back to read more of these inspiring posts and to share some of my own experiences.

This is a much needed sisterhood and I hope it continues.

I am honored to meet you ladies.