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[adoreqvc]

i been off the qvc bb's for a little while. am very depressed and nothing helps.

i opened a locked trunk a few days ago and inside were 2 xmas gifts. one addressed to me, and one to my mother.

they were from my loving husband who died recently, followed 2 weeks later by my beloved mother's death.

i am sitting on the floor just starring at them. all gift wrapped so beautifully with gorgeous bows. one for mom, and one for me. also there was a reminder note to make new years eve plans for us for 2012.

i cannot for the life of me bring myself to open the xmas gifts, or read the 2 cards. seeing his handwriting on the envelopes with his sweet words, to my best gal............and to the best mom-in-law ever have opened the flood gates, and my soul is wailing in deep sorrow over losinng them both. the new years reminder note also said pick up gift from jeweler. what jeweler i do not have a clue.

i am dreading all upcoming holidays, as my 45th wedding anniversary just passed and that was a black day.

i just wish i could get amnesia for the rest of my life, so this never ending grief and pain leave me alone.

i hate father time because he robs us of many things, and reminds us of very painful losses, especially when he merrily rolls around with yet another holiday reminder.

i always loved the holidays and entertaining.................but that was then, and this is now.