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[MalteseMomma]

I am having no patience today with Barkley that has been the love of my life for 15 yrs.Today I am angry and stern and even mean, not at all loving.He is totally wearing me out.His days and nights are mixed up,he sleeps all day and is up all nite,starting when I want to go to bed he gets up and wants to go out in the freezing cold on this terribly windy hill and will not come in for an hr or more.I bundle myself all up and him too and go outside ,he needs help going down the stairs.then i come in without him because he still wants to stay out and i'm freexing to death.Then I'm running to the door to call him in every 5 minutes through the nite..God forbid I should fall aslepp and leave him out in the cold.I have nightmares about that ,if I ever do get to sleep.I don't know if he can get up the stairs himself or not,sometimes he can ,sometimes he cannot.Sometimes I get mad and have to drag him up because I cannot stay awake any longer.He is too heavy for me to pick up.My legs are too weak for both of us to get up the stairs.He is soooo stuborn,he really was such a very good dog all his life.Never was a problem,ever.I'm probably the problem,no patience lately.I'm jealous of all of you that are lovingly caring for your doggies that are getting ready to cross the Bridge Most of the time,I'm not donig such a good job of lovingly helping mine cross over.

His good eating habits are shot to h*ll and I am offering plate after plate of a variety foods,heating, unheating, mixing and cooking a million times a day.Dish after dish!Fresh cooked and canned,dry or wet.

I'm angry right now and not at all loving and kind. He insisted on going outside again just now.It is sooooooo windy here and freezing cold and sooo icey.We just came back from an icy trecherious walk about 1/2 hr ago where he did all his business.He slept 5 min and wants out again,I know it is to eat grass because that is what he is doing today.His tummy isn't good ,it's making those noises .Won't eat his yogurt with the pepcid in it.I guess I shouldn't have given him 1/2 coated baby asprin yesterday.I was in pain and I thought he probably was too.I'm not giving him anymore asprins.

I have only had 1/2 cup coffee so far today,it's 1pm ,I jumped out of bed to minister to him,this goes on everyday.My whole life has suddenly turned into just serving him....lol...........laughing at myself.I need to get control of this sutuation before I get a stroke and he lives on with my DD who doesn't tolerate bs from animals.......lo

Ok ,now everyone that isn't in our pet friendly "PET LOVERS GROUP" can jump on me for spoiling my old dog.I need it.......lol Pet Chatters I know you all understand and if you want to jump on me too go ahead........lol

ok,I'm climbing down off my ranting soapbox thanks for letting me vent,I'm going to put him on ignore for the reast of the day