Kayla passed away Sunday night. We are heartbroken. I can't stop crying. She was my sweet baby girl, all 4 pounds of her and I miss her so much. I couldn't post, is still hard trying to type between tears.
She ate her meal as usual Saturday noon but that was the last time she ate. She wouldn't eat or try anything, just turned her little head Saturday night and Sunday. She wasn't running a temperature and didn't cry but also just laid in a doggy bed Saturday night which wasn't like her at all. DH and I took turns holding her all of Sunday and she seemed content. She would look from one to the other when we handed her back and forth. She even licked our hands which she always did.
We hadn't eaten or been out of the house Sunday so going on 9 PM I said to DS would you hold Kayla while dad and I just go out for coffee, will be back in 45 minutes tops and we were. We came home by 9:45 and DS was at the door, said Kayla passed away at 9:30. She didn't seem worse, just wouldn't eat and very weak. We had plans to take her to the vet as soon as they opened Monday morning.
She would never make a mess in the house. She couldn't stand up without help Sunday or leaning against something so we carried her out Sunday when she got a big squiggly or antsy and she would go potty right away and we picked her up and carried her back in and held her.
DH and I sat up all of Sunday night holding her and talking to her even though she was gone, still can't believe it. She started with blood coming out of her little rear Sunday evening but she had that at the vets and the meds helped so we weren't too concerned.
We took her Monday to the vet to be cremated. He said he never saw such a little tyke that was such a fighter. He said she didn't want me to see her go and was waiting till I left the house. She knew I couldn't take seeing that he said and is why she kept watching us and why she got a bit antsy, wanted to be alone he thinks.
I feel so bad now for our son who never saw anyone pass away and to have her go in his arms like this. He was sobbing so hard when we got home.
Now we wonder if we did the right thing and left her at the hospital those 8 days than brought her home and took her in for fluid injections. Should we have done this or should we have let her go when he said her kidneys were shutting down. I hope we just didn't make her last 2 weeks worse for her and make her suffer, is all I can think about now.
I will post an e mail my sister sent me Monday about her yorkie Benny, same problem about the same age or a little younger.
I AM SO SORRY FOR YOUR LOSS. I WAS AFRAID TO EVEN CHECK MY MAIL TODAY BECAUSE I KNEW WHAT YOU WERE GOING TO SAY. I COULDN'T EVEN RESPOND YESTERDAY BECAUSE I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY. WE LOST BENNY THE SAME WAY AFTER HIS KIDNEYS STARTED TO SHUT DOWN. WE TOOK HIM TO THE EMERGENCY VET ON A SUNDAY AND YOU HAVE TO TAKE THE OUT BY 8 THE NEXT MORNING WHEN THEIR REGULAR;AR VETS COME IN. THEY TOLD US THAT HIS LEVELS WERE NOT GOOD AND DR TERRY CHECKED AND GOT THE SAME LEVELS. DR. TERRY SAID THEY WEREN'T GOOD BUT HE HAS SEEN DOGS COME BACK FROM WORSE. HE TOLD US WE COULD PROBABLY TAKE HER HOME ON WED. AND HE WOULD TEACH US HOW TO REHYDRATE HIM. WHEN WE VISITED HE FELL OVER BUT STILL WAGGED ALL OVER. HE WENT AND STAYED IN THE CORNER AND WHEN I ASKED WHY DR. TERRY SAID "DON'T YOU WANT TO BE LEFT ALONE WHEN YOU DON'T FEEL GOOD". I REALIZED AFTERWARD THAT HE WANTED TO GO AWAY TO DIE BECAUSE THE NEXT MORNING HE WAS GONE. YORKIES ARE JUST SUCH GREAT LITTLE LAP DOGS , ALWAYS WANTING TO BE WITH YOU. NOTHING CAN EASE YOUR PAIN RIGHT NOW AND THERE ARE JUST SOME DOGS THAT ONE CAN NEVER GET OVER, KAYLA SOUNDS LIKE SHE MIGHT BE ONE OF THEM. I WISH I COULD HELP YOU BECAUSE I KNOW HOW BAD THE PAIN IS, JUST KNOW THAT I AM PRAYING FOR YOU AND CRYING RIGHT ALONG WITH YOU. BEV
