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[Sabear]

I dont usually post much personal info, but I am going through a depression phase and I need a place to vent. I hope you kind ladies will indulge me and I am will ing to take any advice into consideration.

I am in my 50's never married or had children. I find it embarrassing to some extent, but I am also disappointed about what I have missed out on. The problem, as I see it, is that I am very shy socially. I will avoid social situations and this has actually caused problems with my friends (weddings, parties, etc). At work I am outgoing and feel normal, but the miniute I get into a social situation, I want to leave. No one in my immediate family is like this and I dont know how this became a part of my personality. I have discussed this my mother (who is a social butterfly) and she cant seem to grasp it.

I feel like a misfit, because most people take about their children, grandchildren and all the life events that go with them and they seem to cherish those moments. I have nothing . My friends are married so I dont have anyone to really hang with, even if I didnt have social issues. My parents are elderly.

I work full time, have a masters degree and function well in that environment. But outside of that, I feel trapped in a life that I created and now it is too late (esp for children) to do anything about it. I am neat and clean and some say I do not look my age. What is wrong with me?

I feel kind of hopeless, any advice?

Maybe this is not the best place to get answers but sometimes it is easier to "talk" with strangers. Does anyone have a similar problem, have you tried any treatment that works? Also, for the record I am not suicidal or anything nearing that kind of despair. Thanks much...Leigh