Community Chat

[streetangel]

Most of you know, I suddenly lost my beautiful Queen Siamese, Veddy, on April 17. I am having such a difficult time letting her go. Although it wouldn't have changed the outcome any, I am haunted by not knowing what happened to her -- a seemingly healthy animal who had just been to the vet a few weeks prior to her death. I came home and found her laying in my hallway, still warm but gone - I wasn't even here for her when she died, and that is almost more than I can bear sometimes when I think about it.

I cannot tell you how much I miss her companionship, her wisdom, her entertaining and amusing ways. Her beautiful blue eyes that were always so alert and bright, her stalking me when I'd be in the bathroom, pushing open the door and coming in, even her waking me up and 3 in the morning all the time. My heart is just so broken, and although my remaining furbabies try to comfort me and are in and of themselves precious to me, the pain I am in over losing her is sometimes so much to bear, my throat actually closes up.

I know there is nothing any of you can do, no one can change one thing about any of this, but sometimes I just feel like I am going to lose my mind missing her and I would do ANYTHING to turn back the hands of time and have her back again. Plain and simple, I want her back......and that will never happen.

Thanks for listening, ladies.....I know you all understand.