Beauty

[Breesmom]

I haven't posted for about a month or so now and wanted to let you all know why.

My husband was in and out of the hospital since Christmas. About 2 1/2 wks ago he told me he felt like he could hardly get his breath. I took him to the Emergency Room and he was taken by ambulance to larger medical facility approximately 50 miles away for an emergency cardiac catheterization. His hospital stay was constantly up and down - from he was doing really good to he took a turn for the worse. The cardiac catheterization showed that he had very little blockage - not even enough to warrant stints, but he had had extensive heart damage from a "silent" heart attack and some kind of virus in the past.

My husband fought a brave fight but passed away last Friday. He was only 53 yrs. old. This past week has been one of the hardest I've ever gone through in my life, but slowly, I am trying to get on with my life. We have no children - only our 2 precious little dogs and they have been such a comfort to me.

My husband knew how much I loved my Philosophy shower gels, lotions, fragrances and skin care and he also knew how much I loved getting on the Philosophy Girls board. I would tell him things like "so and so said ....." and "so and so said ....". He always listened to what I had to say because he knew how important this board is to me and how I thought of all of you as friends. I know that he would want me to continue posting and reading on Philosophy Girls and I also wanted to let you all know why I haven't been on the board for awhile. I would never want any of you to think that I was offened by something or that anyone had said something to hurt my feelings. That is why I love this board so much - we can give our opinions because we are all individuals and all interpret smells, etc. differently, but no one ever gets upset with that because, like I said - we are all different and we know that each of us is just giving their impressions of smells, et.

So now I will continue to get on with my life, and try and handle the grief. I know I will have really bad days and I will have good days, and I look forward to being a part of Philosophy GIrls again.