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[cbrite]

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@mistriTsquirrel wrote:

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@cbrite wrote:

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@mistriTsquirrel wrote:

@cbrite  That does not sound like a good doctor.  I'm sorry he is not supportive of you.    I hope you can find someone else who is more understanding and helpful.

I can relate to a lot of what you are saying.  One of the most alarming things for me has been the brain fog.  I forget things.  I type things out and realize I've typed the same thing twice.  I put something in the microwave, and 2 1/2 minutes later when it beeps I am wondering what that noise is.  The antidepressant has helped with that, but I am still on a low dose and I think that is why it is not helping more.

I can also relate to doctors not helping.  I have 2 right now that are little or no help.  But I am stuck with one as the leading specialist in the area for my chronic illness, and it's nearly impossible to find a decent psychiatrist who will take my insurance.

I also get very bad feelings being here sometimes.  That is why I have spent so much time at my mother's house this past year.  This house is a reminder of a lot of grief, anxiety and depression that has hit a crisis level at times.

I am barely functioning myself.  I told my psychiatrist that at my appointment yesterday.  He doesn't really care.

I am sorry you are going through some similar feelings.  I am not religious, but I have found that prayer--or meditation--have been the things that have gotten me through some of the times when I felt I was dangerously close to giving up.

Are you on medications to help with how you feel?  Is there a counselor you see? 

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He wanted some antidepressant, I said no, been there a long time ago...were awful... felt like a zombie.... I relate to most of what you've written here too.... He wanted to put me on meds to reduce my heart rate....it's very fast.... I wanted blood+xray...He used to want to see me every 2 weeks......not anymore.....I stopped ambien...long ago.

I've had some pretty tramatic things occur....I am terrified of ppl ---- I honestly think, I'd have to have a lot of positive/caring experiences with someone, to counter act the bad stuff.. and I can't find a positive, caring person in real life.... I guess holding my hand is against human laws in todays world. 

I did laugh at your micro wave issue....can relate. 

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@cbrite  Yeah, I have felt like a zombie on antidepressants, but cutting back on the dosage can help.  Or switching to a different med.  I don't know if I would survive without some sort of antidepressant, honestly.

If you are willing to give antidepressants another shot, you may want to do one of those GeneSight tests that will tell you which ones are most likely to work for you.  Cuts out a lot of guesswork.  

Also, my mother has had experienced some relief from taking Deplin.  It is some sort of folate derivative (a vitamin) that you get by prescription only.  

I am glad to hear you stopped Ambien.  That one can lead to a lot of trouble.  I took it for a short while.  One day I woke up on the bathroom floor with my coat and shoes on and decided it was not for me.  Also, I used to have a friend who became addicted to it.  She was arrested for driving while under the influence of it and nearly lost her nursing license.

I cut off contact with my offline "friends" after my dad died.  It was quite upsetting to see peoples' true nature when my dad was sick and after he died.  I think it traumatized me to see how awful people can be, and I find it hard to want to be around people offline.  It's not that I wouldn't like to be hugged and have good experiences with people in person, it's just that my belief in the goodness of human beings has taken a severe beating.  I really want to believe people are good, but it is so difficult, you know? 

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@mistriTsquirrel

I'm sorry it's taken me so long to reply..I figure you'll find this, lol.

Yes, I do understand.   

I have a limited time to socialize.

I hope you r doing better...I've got to go but will be back maybe tomorrow. 

[cbrite]

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[KitTkat]

@cbrite I'm afraid to ask if what I'm looking at in your pics is correct. 🐀🍞 mouse in your bread? 😨

[KitTkat]

p.s. The chew marks are shaped like a cat. See the seated kitty outline?

[KitTkat]

@cbrite Happy Valentine's day❤🌹 i wanted to stop by and wish you a great evening, even if it's spent alone, there is still friends to share hearts with. my kitties are my only Valentine's, but that's ok. I don't need roses or candy, but I will nibble on some ice cream tonight. Big hugs.

[cbrite]

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@KitTkat wrote:

@cbrite Happy Valentine's day❤🌹 i wanted to stop by and wish you a great evening, even if it's spent alone, there is still friends to share hearts with. my kitties are my only Valentine's, but that's ok. I don't need roses or candy, but I will nibble on some ice cream tonight. Big hugs.

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OH, now see, I just noticed this ....THANK YOU 😁

Wait...I have a tart to share with YOU...a fruit one.....got to download the pic of it..they grow all their own stuff to eat.... !! I'll BRB..... is a pretty thing~~~ Belated Happy V day back....Going to go fetch it now...

[cbrite]

😬Ok....got the PHOTO !!....is from the Q and is plastic...(flower) and the butterflies too but they are metal....is on the outside..(yes, I have a zoo...) 

[KitTkat]

@cbrite  Foo. It's tough not having the notifications wor

[KitTkat]

@cbrite I'm also having trouble posting, that last post would nt let me finish, it just sat there. Ugh. Anyway, as I was typing, without the notifications working, I didn't know you were here😔. Sorry to keep you lonely.

[KitTkat]

@cbrite  foo, now I wanna see the whole giraffe 🐪 no giraffe graphic so I used a camel, lol🐪