OMG I'm having second thoughts........

MalteseMomma — Thu, 18 Aug 2011 02:01:07 GMT

Maybe I should have waited.At least untill the fall or maybe he had had another winter in him,although I was surprised he made it through this last one..Maybe it wasn't his time yet. Maybe I was wrong.Maybe it was too early and he still had a lot of time left.It all went too easy and softly and sweetly.It feels like I shouldn't have done it.Everyone is telling me he looked so good and heathy.

Maybe I should have waited untill something major happened and there would be no doubt it had to be done right then. .

I miss him terribly.I have no reason to get up early anymore.There is no sleepy doggy to snuggle and kiss good morning. "Morning Love" I called it.

No reason to throw my clothes on to take him out first thing.now I can read my paper and drink my coffee as long as I want ,But funny thats not important anymore,

No reason to go outside.

No reason to pick things up off the floor or the ground so he don't get into it

Those nasty old mushrooms outside can grow as much and as fast as they want,MrB isn't here to maybe eat them and maybe get sick.

I don't have to tip toe around cause he is sleeping or climb over him to go to the bathroom or twist in all kinds of ways trying to open the shower door with out disturbing him.

I don't have to get up in the middle of the nite to see if he is breathing or if he ate the food I left for him.

I can almost hear him tip -toeing in here now, cause I'm on this computer and it's time for his cookie

I'll expect him to be waiting by the door when I come out of the shower in a few minutes.

Maybe I should have waited a little while longer

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