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Feeling Edgy!

hooked on books — Wed, 18 Mar 2020 02:12:15 GMT

I know I'm not the only one, but I really don't like feeling this constant edginess. To me, it's that "waiting for the other shoe to drop" feeling. Life is totally changing for all of us on a daily basis and though I really hope it's only temporary it just seems so surreal to be living through it. I used this word on another forum because it's the only word that pops into my head when I really think about what life is like now. I wish for all of us strength, calmness and strong coping mechanisms, moving forward.

Re: Feeling Edgy!

MW in Iowa — Wed, 18 Mar 2020 02:33:00 GMT

Well said , i think with the exception of a few , that is a good decription of how i feel and i am sure the majority. It will turn out to be nothing or a nightmare.

Re: Feeling Edgy!

on the bay — Wed, 18 Mar 2020 02:37:09 GMT

@hooked on books -

I think a lot of people are feeling the same way. You described it very well

unfortunately.

It does seem unreal and surreal!

I noticed today I can get irritable which is not my usual but then think everything is ok but not ok and we don't know how it will be or what will happen.

Some in my family are wondering if they have a cold or allergies and then start thinking yikes is it the virus

or what. But then I think what can you do for it anyway? So very unnerving isn't it?

I'm determined to make each moment one of kindness, to love and take care of those I love and to give my grandchildren calmness and fun and love.

They only know their world and what they are doing and feeling moment by moment and that puts me in the world of this moment every time I see them which is every day.

I think about all the people worried about their jobs or businesses, children and people worried about having enough food or to pay bills or medical care, animals who may need help, all of us who worry about our family we can't see, those who had to cancel weddings and not attend funerals. It is just a whole different world for all of us now. How we treat each other will be our legacy.

Re: Feeling Edgy!

KathyM23 — Wed, 18 Mar 2020 02:37:48 GMT

@hooked on books Feeling edgy is a good description for the way I am feeling also. I went out yesterday to finish some errands before my shelter in place for who knows how long. Restaurants are closed, so didn't do my normal lunch out.

Of course I am worried about the virus, but my edginess is more related to what it has changed our world. Schools, Churches, restaurants, businesses closed, lack of products on grocery shelves, changes in access to our physicians. Worried about the effect on our economy, businesses and life in general. Just everything. I feel like I am living in a different world that won't get back to normal.

Usually I am a pretty upbeat person, but this has affected me. In my trip out yesterday I kept my distance from everyone, which is opposite of my normal friendliness and enjoyment of interacting with people. And yes, I feel edgy today. Hope it passes, but it is going to be hard to shelter in place, especially if it turns into a lengthy period.

Re: Feeling Edgy!

hooked on books — Wed, 18 Mar 2020 02:38:58 GMT

@MW in Iowa, yes, and the in-between is getting really nervewracking(at least for me it is)!😷

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hooked on books — Wed, 18 Mar 2020 02:45:25 GMT

@on the bay
@KathyM23, I think having this forum/thread is a good thing because we can express our feelings and support each other as we go through these frightening and unsure times! 😷

Re: Feeling Edgy!

on the bay — Wed, 18 Mar 2020 02:51:55 GMT

@hooked on books -

I think so too

Re: Feeling Edgy!

msgb — Wed, 18 Mar 2020 03:20:18 GMT

That is how I feel a lot of the time. I have anxiety and much of the time I have a handle on it to a degree but then there are other times --as you say --you are waiting for the other shoe to drop. The shoe will drop at some point and it just up to us to know that we have the strength to carry on.

it is at time like this that I really miss my father. I am fortunate to have my mother who is in her late 80's and I think that is a good reason that I am on edge. It is because she is older and she does have severe underlying health conditions. She is strong and determined and has met a lot of shoe dropping events and she has come out the other end still wanting to go on. I have that to go on too. I have met my own share of health issues and well --let's just say I am stubborn. I am doing more than I was expected after a major health event.

I have a sibling who had stage 4 cancer. A chance of 5-10 % is what they were given. That was in 2000-2001 and they are still rearing to go.

My father would say this too shall pass. It is just hard while you are going though it because the unknown is a bit scary.

Wishing all the best.

Re: Feeling Edgy!

NEvans2 — Wed, 18 Mar 2020 03:22:12 GMT

I'm right there with you. Both my husband and our son work in hospitals. My husband works behind the scenes and has no contact with patients. Our son, on the other hand, works intake at the ER in a different hospital. He texted me tonight and told me they had two confirmed virus patients admitted this evening. Gives me even more anxiety than my usual anxiety. We can only do what we can do. I will be sleeping when my son gets home from work. So I guess I have to wait until tomorrow for more info from him. Wish us luck!

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ritasNo1Fan — Wed, 18 Mar 2020 03:22:37 GMT

I feel something beyond edgy.

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BlueFinch — Wed, 18 Mar 2020 05:24:48 GMT

Our world changed almost overnight, so it would be hard to perceive it as anything but surreal. Our reality changed, in a most unpleasant way.

I was telling a friend that I feel a sense of dissociation, like an out of body experience, watching everything unfold. Like, no, I can't be in this thing, I'm just watching it at a safe, emotional distance -- a casual observer in the chaos.

Intellectually, I know that's nonsense and my feelings are just my coping mechanism. My way of rejecting this new reality. It's also the effects of self isolating, while handling the situation all alone, in this new normal.

If my husband were still alive, we would just dance right through it. We could handle anything together. It doesn't help I'm hearing of healthcare workers falling ill. It's a big trigger for me, having lost my husband this way, too. They/we are unsung heroes.

So, for those of you who have someone, anyone by your side that offers you love, and support, you have a special gift. Enjoy each other and dance a little, this thing will come to an end, with new beginnings.

Re: Feeling Edgy!

cbrite — Wed, 18 Mar 2020 06:37:41 GMT

I agree with all the posts...Thank you for posting such deep feelings...

I'm alone. I'm high risk. I think early today when I saw the pharmacy delivery guy react to me I about lost it. He had gloves on, hid behind my screen door, took the corner of my medicine bag and stretched out his arm/hand so I could get it. I am weak much of the time so it was off putting.

He looked afraid of me. He said I would have to get my own pen to sign off. He stood way back. He did all the things right. I felt like some dying alien. I could hardly locate a pen. All these things run through my head hourly. I go to YT and watch different things NOT related but in the end of the night I'm left with just me and my feelings. Yes, beyond edgy.....something else. I want to go home.

I wish peace and healing soon....and life, wonderful LIFE.

Re: Feeling Edgy!

KitTkat — Wed, 18 Mar 2020 06:50:15 GMT

@cbrite you're not alone. We're all here in this together. Youre in my heart, sweet sisterfriemd of nighttime serenading. ❤

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Mary Bailey — Wed, 18 Mar 2020 08:50:24 GMT

I'm feeling: Edgy Surreal Eerie Creeped-Out Scared

I ordered from Blue Apron for food. They had $20 off for 5 weeks. We also have pantry & freezer full of food. I got the Blue Apron for some variety.

My sister cancelled Easter at her house. Jesus Christ Superstar (with Ted Neeley & Yvonne Elliman in person) was cancelled by Hollywood Blvd. My job is work from home for everyone until further notice. (I normally work from home)

Re: Feeling Edgy!

haddon9 — Wed, 18 Mar 2020 09:00:17 GMT

@hooked on books wrote:
I know I'm not the only one, but I really don't like feeling this constant edginess. To me, it's that "waiting for the other shoe to drop" feeling. Life is totally changing for all of us on a daily basis and though I really hope it's only temporary it just seems so surreal to be living through it. I used this word on another forum because it's the only word that pops into my head when I really think about what life is like now. I wish for all of us strength, calmness and strong coping mechanisms, moving forward.

@hooked on books I feel the same way....it's like a nightmre that can't be real but everyday that I wake up the message from the media seems to be worse than the day before.

It brings worries and anxiety which is not healthy and yes I'm feeling on edge too. Even when I'm distracted by watching something either funny or interesting on TV (I've been catching up on Outlander) it's still in the back of my mind.

It's so hard to believe that this is really happening!

Re: Feeling Edgy!

jpie — Wed, 18 Mar 2020 09:18:26 GMT

@KathyM23 wrote:
@hooked on books Feeling edgy is a good description for the way I am feeling also. I went out yesterday to finish some errands before my shelter in place for who knows how long. Restaurants are closed, so didn't do my normal lunch out.

Of course I am worried about the virus, but my edginess is more related to what it has changed our world. Schools, Churches, restaurants, businesses closed, lack of products on grocery shelves, changes in access to our physicians. Worried about the effect on our economy, businesses and life in general. Just everything. I feel like I am living in a different world that won't get back to normal.

Usually I am a pretty upbeat person, but this has affected me. In my trip out yesterday I kept my distance from everyone, which is opposite of my normal friendliness and enjoyment of interacting with people. And yes, I feel edgy today. Hope it passes, but it is going to be hard to shelter in place, especially if it turns into a lengthy period.

____

Your second paragraph is a succinct account of why everybody is on edge right now.

I'm going to put a roll of Charmin in my outgoing mailbox with a smiley sticker for my postal carrier, Steve. "Neither wind, nor hail, COVID-19, you guys deliver". Thank you! Maybe a box of Girl Scout cookies another day.

Never thought I'd appreciate getting junk mail or bills!

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AngelPuppy1 — Wed, 18 Mar 2020 09:55:03 GMT

@hooked on books

That's the perfect description of how I feel! And "waiting for the other shoe to drop" was one of my dear mother's favorite sayings --- and I use it frequently!

I keep hearing on t.v. people saying ---- "this is our new normal". Oh, my gosh --- I don't want to even think of it that way. I hope and pray to go back to my "old normal." I didn't realize how good I had it! I think many of us probably feel that way!

The loss of freedom of any kind is not a good feeling.

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FlowerBear — Wed, 18 Mar 2020 11:20:40 GMT

I have been feeling more of this way this week! One of my friends thinks everyone is paranoid and silly and is doing nothing at all differently! I didnt say anything to her but feel that is the wrong attitude!

After I saw questions being answered this morning on the news channel by Dr Janette Nesheiwat I am feeling more on edge and afraid. I have concern about my family and loved ones too!

That Dr said the Virus can stay in the air for up to a few hours! I didnt think it was in the air and wondering why why masks wont help????

With people walking around with no symptoms that can spread it this scares me too.

Dr said it can remain on some surfaces from a few hours to a few days. And to be careful with the mail.

This feels like a movie or a nightmare. I come here and my online stuff like facebook and other social media to relieve some stress and connect, and know that others feel the same way.

When I watch a movie or soap and get my mind off of all of this it helps but when that is over my mind goes right back!

Re: Feeling Edgy!

AuntG — Wed, 18 Mar 2020 11:49:47 GMT

Since I took early retirement, my world has been rather small so things feel pretty much the same. If course I've cut out the library, dining out and haircuts. Thinking my dentist will cancel my April cleaning. I guess my only stress is figuring out when to grocery shop.

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SilleeMee — Wed, 18 Mar 2020 12:07:09 GMT

Not only edgy, but my anxiety level has gone waaay up, too, and in some strange way I feel like I'm invisible. I say that because others are too busy to notice me or and anyone one else.

I feel like snapping at people and I'm not like that normally at all. I was walking my dog in the park. I saw a dog without a leash, it was pooping as the owner watched and then walked away w/o picking up the poo. I yelled at that person. I was mad because it showed me irresponsibility which is exactly what we don't need right now.