I've missed you all (aka chercb)

ncbeachbumintx — Fri, 08 Jul 2011 23:22:05 GMT

I wanted to let all of my dear BE sisters know that while I haven't posted in quite some time, I haven't forgotten you all and think of you everyday...

In addition to some health issues (all regarding my chronic pain, no new diagnosis) after I took a bad fall on the back stairs. I cracked 2 ribs, and basically bruised up my entire left side! It was more painful and serious and just slowed me down a bit more for a few weeks. On my way to being mended now.

I lost another of my Eskies, last Wednesday, to cancer. My beloved "Jenny" had been fighting the symptoms and the vet was truly amazed at how well she had been doing. Then all a sudden, the weekend before last, she just got sick and lethargic, refused to eat, and just not herself. She would have been 13 in October, and like the others, was a rescue. I got her when she was almost a year old. I miss her so much! You may recall, that it hasn't even been a year yet, since I lost my dear "Summer" baby. Needless to say, I am very sad and the ONLY silver lining in this, is that Jenny isn't in pain & suffering now.

Not surprising, DH's comment was, "aren't you used to this by now?" to which I just ignored, because I was taught early on that if I can't say anything nice, I should be quiet!!! That situation has gone from bad to worse and I really need to admit to myself that it's over and not going to change! While he was recuperating from his surgery, he actually told me that he appreciated me and that he felt renewed love for me, as he saw my unselfish actions in regard to taking care of him, despite my own pain. Evidently, it was short-lived, because now that he is better, he has started back up with the verbal abuse and rude comments toward me. If he had complaints about my actions, I could change those (if I agreed, of course), but when someone who you think loves you, tells you that "you are a fat***, not attractive to them anymore, and that they will never touch you intimately again", it doesn't take a genius to see that I am foolish to think this will work out. I pray everyday, several times each day for guidance as to what to do, and it's becoming more and more clear, that I seem to be loosing this battle of trying to save my marriage. Most days, I feel there is not even friendship on his end, which I do not understand at all.

I've already gone on longer than I intended and I realize that there are members here, who do not even know me and may be wondering what in the world this has to do with BE. I apologize to anyone whose time I took up and I hope you realize that I was trying to contact those of you who do know me and may have wondered what I have been doing, that I haven't been on here.

I plan to try harder to stay in the loop and at least check on the daily thread. So many of you have been an inspiration to me, even when you may not have known it. Thanks for your time and prayers. I welcome any updates of products that you all have been talking about, cuz I haven't done too well with keeping up on that end either! Just been shopping my own stash ;-)

I love you all and I truly have missed our communication! (((HUGS)))

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I've missed you all (aka chercb)